Quiet

So things are very quiet on the surrogacy end for me. Waiting to hear how things pan out. Looking and hoping. It's not easy. I am just as impatient as the other person. In surrogacy it's just has to be something you learn to accept.
You hear something hopeful then nothing at all. It's very frustrating. I prefer to know what's going on and not wait for it. I am thinking since there is nothing good to report they choose to say nothing. To me I like to know if there is something I can do to help it out.
Replying to adds and getting no reply back at all is just rude. I don't understand why you can't acknowledge getting the info and thank the person for their time but you aren't interested. This is much better than ignoring them.
If the shoe was on the other foot??? I am a believer of do onto others as you would want done onto yourself.

It's so sad.

There has been so much negativeness about surrogacy in the news lately. It's heartbreaking to see something I love so much being treated in such a manor.
It's such a beautiful gift to give to another couple to become a family. It's a shame some went the wrong path and took advantage of others. I am glad they are stopped but the news is causing so much harm to those who didn't break the law. Who took the right path.
I hope it goes away soon and we can try to continue to help others legally!

looking again

It saddens me that I have to say I am looking to match again. I do believe there is a reason for everything and hopefully we both will find a new match soon.

I am waiting to see if I will be matched again or look on my own. I have all testing done though and I am ready to go. Lets see if anyone else is.lol

:-(

Well not what I was hoping for. I am waiting for the official word but it sounds like the end is very near. I hate hearing this. I guess there is always a reason for things to happen, but it still hurts. I feel awful it's come to this. I hold no grudges and only hope for the best for all of us.

One bumpy ride

So many things going on not even sure where to start.
First is we went into contracts. Bad thing is we went into contracts. From one attorney refusing to keep things in that was agreed on from day one. Stating laws. When there is still always a way to have them in if worded correctly.
Then one attorney asking to have it switched to a local attorney to be able to state the laws here. Then to have another doing a counter offer that was never expected to be accepted but to have the first attorney rethink things and add back what is to be in it from the beginning.
I believe it's causes all party's to have worries when in reality if the parties involved were sitting at a table they could have it all worked out with no issues. It's just sad it's gotten like this and I hope that things get worked out soon. I know I am hurting and I am quite sure she is too. If it does get worked out soon then great if not then we may be onto new journeys. I know this isn't what I want.
I do believe everyone involved is really trying so this is a good sign.

On top of that my father-in-law is dying of cancer. He went into hospice last Friday. He was completely incoherent and is now up talking, walking and asking to go home. This is just crazy how it's going. We know the health is still the same as he is still dying from cancer but he is just such a strong man he isn't going down with out a fight.lol It's quite the emotional ride that is for sure. Last weekend we are talking about canceling his things like direst tv, news papers, closing up apartment, dumping old meds down the toilet. To now saying well crap he's gonna be mad when he gets home.lol There is just no book on what you should do and all we have done is to do our best for him. We offered for him to return home with us. He only wants to go to his place. I don't think that is wise as he really does need help all day long. Guess will see what the future brings.

The family is doing good. The grand kids are growing up so fast.

One good thing today

I have been approved for health insurance!!! Not just major medical either. I will now have maternity coverage!! I am so excited! I was worried when I first heard I was denied insurance from the major group here. I thought my chances of continue on was over. Then found out about this pre-existing plan and that it's good for me and nothing against surrogacy got me hopeful again. It only took less than two weeks too. I was very happy for that as when I first called I was told it could take 5-6 weeks.
Now I am just hoping the contract issues can be cleared. I know things have been going on behind the scenes and my attorney was doing some research. She found some things out last night and is calling me today to discuss them. I sure hope it's good news.
I just want to help MaryEllen have baby number 2. I am so ready as is she.

Wish us luck.

Ups and Downs

So if there is something that can go wrong it seems to happen in waves.lol
 I had my fluid u/s done and got the all clear. I was so happy. I mean there could have been a polyp or something else that could have caused us to hault or pause. Thankfully they were happy to see my uterus is in good shape. The only down fall is I have been bleeding while on the pill for 3 weeks. Not fun let me tell ya. They took me off the pill and put me on two estrogen patches from Wed. to Sat. and if still bleeding (which I am) then put two more on. They say this will do the trick but I am not so sure anymore. UGH! I hope it does. Then I start the pill again.
Then I got word that the insurance I applied for that was asked if they would decline me for having GD in the past did just that declined me. UGH! It took them long enough to let me know. So that put a huge scare in me. I had the broker contacting other insurances but they too all said they would decline me for that or a couple other stupid things.
Then she called with good news. There is a new insurance that is desinged for those who have a pre-existing condition, been turned down by an insurance, and no insurance for at least 6 months. I fit the bill! So I applied that nigh and had to have my Dr. say I had one of the conditions and send in my letter from the other insurance that they declined me. The good thing also it's cheaper and it covers maternity when the other wasn't going to unless there was some major medical reason. So I am happy and I see no reason why I wouldn't get this one now.
Then my IM's attorney did as promised had the contracts done before the end of the week. The only thing is she left out lots of things that the agency asked to have in and lots of things I need in it. My attorney said no way are we signing this until it's fixed. Then it seem to be going down hill even more with the other attorney saying no. Um hello, why not? I guess things are going on behind the scenes as my attorney today said there was more added but still not quite right but she was looking into things. So I hope this a good sign.
I just want to have things go smooth now. My poor IM is just as excited and eager too. We have the ED ready to do things now as I think she started her period so now it's time for her to be checked and started. We don't need any more stress.
Speaking of stress I am hopeful to be rid of that soon too. I hear my clinic offers massage and acupuncture and my IM says to get it done. She had this for her cycles and believes it's a good thing. I have never had this so I am really looking forward to trying it out! She is such a sweet lady. I so can't wait to get this thing going and hope to have first time success and enjoy this journey with her and her DD.

In my home life, it's been busy! Having two little ones at home is fun but noisy.lol Tristen is still trying to potty train, and we found out he will be getting assessed for her speech and any other issue he may or may not have. I am excited for him. I think he tries so hard to communicate but sometimes it's just so hard for him.
Khloe is still dealing with reflux but she is doing better with the pain. She is going to see a GI in just over a week. Yay!
My baby (katy) turns 20 in just over a week too. Time flies by I swear I remember her following me around everywhere.